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Life.. Embrace the Mess that YOU are

Life.  That is what happens to us.  So many ups and downs and twists and turns.. and before you know it, months later, you realize that your life is just a mess.   A crazy, beautiful, busy, sometimes rough, slightly annoyed, work-addicted, colorful life- and I would not trade it for the world.

It’s been a while since I was able to write..  about life, about our crazy chickens, or the newest dog addition, or my kids that seem to have grown like weeds in the past 3 short months.  So with that, here is a little update on our favorite Rosy and Pearl!  They finally finished their second bout of molting..  oh how I have missed our daily eggs!  About 1 month ago, Pearl started to lay her eggs again– YAY!!   On the other hand, Rosy has stopped laying hers.  I do not think we have gotten an egg from her since before Thanksgiving.  My husband believes she is just done…  I still am holding out hope.  With that, has begun talks of getting a bigger coop in the works so we can have more hens!  Our girls like to free range a lot (then again, which hens don’t?!)  Now that our days are longer, they get to stay outside longer for their free-range time.  They enjoy playing chase with the newest pup, Norvi, as well as play in the big dogs water bowl.  They also like to pick oranges off of the orange tree and loving the alfalfa that we start to grow for them!


Spring is one of my favorite times!  It is filled with fun events in our city, a perfect time for spending family time outside and also time with friends…  crawfish boils are my families’ favorite!  Spring is also the time work is busiest– requires a lot of traveling which I could not be more thankful for.   Getting to see and explore new areas, regardless of the tragic reasons I am there, brings so much awareness.  I learn.. i learn how to deal with people, with life events, with different cultures, all the while, implementing those things learned back at home.  I am a very goal oriented person..  If I want something, I will figure out a way to achieve it.  Some see that as a threat.  I see it as attacking my goals head on and achieving what I want to make ME a better person- despite what anyone else thinks.  I have learned to become more free. Free by taking ME time.  Not letting stupid, insecure, and overly mean spirited people filled with hate, take me down.  Learning that the problem lies with that person or persons and they can figure it out.  Learning to apologize to those that deserve it and learning to love the ones that CHOOSE to be in my or my families’ lives.   But most importantly, knowing when to walk away and say I. AM. DONE.   The focus is on my kids. My husband. My animals. My friends. My work. AND God.  Life is:  Beautiful. Tragic. Happy. Filled with love.  and above all, I CHOOSE ME.


Why I Started

Many people have asked me, why do you have chickens? Aren’t they too much to take care of with work, children, a family, and volunteering?  I always laugh it off and say, well, what else would I do?  So you can imagine that when I decided to start a blog about it all… well, lets just say, some think I have gone crazy.  And some days, well, I sure feel like I have.

I use to blog back in the day–  more so about life experiences.  That just didn’t really seem like enough- I need to blog about purpose, more than just little things in life that seemed irrelevant to the next person that I talked with.  So, I gave up.  I focused on family, my career, and striving for more in my life.   Now, some days, I feel like I have it all, and then not enough.  So with that, here I am again.. which brings me to what I consider a funny story to how all this got started.

I have a BFF, her name is Danielle.  You know when you meet someone and it is just an instant connection- a click that you very rarely find in other people when it comes to friendship?  Well that was us.  One instance brought us together.. nannying.  Who would have though that literally 8 years later, we would still be just as strong of friends (minus the distance) as we were the week we met.  She is an inspiration- she has been with me through my very highs and my very lows.  She knows it all.  D started blogging, about her life.. the trials and tribulations of a disease that she is battling daily,  one that even being around her, I see has changed her- her ways of living, eating, exercise, etc.  As I was reading her blog, which you can find here: http://allisphairinloveandwar.com/ , I realized that she wanted to spread the word. She wanted people to know that someone diagnosed with pulmonary hypertension, can indeed make changes to live a better life..she had a purpose!  It was then that I realized, although my blogging would be very different, that I missed it and wanted to give it another go.. so here starts the story to how I created Bitch Bak Up… a blog about chickens, life, and what not to do.

I had a purpose.  I get questions daily on things I do, as a beginner, to take care of my chickens.  What do you use in the coop?  What if the chickens aren’t laying eggs?  Which coop is better? (Verdict still out on that one- the one we have is just WAY to small.) How many chickens do you have? When do you have too many….or not enough?  As I was talking to Danielle about blogging, she encouraged me to start something about chickens…  man that can be limiting..  and yet oh so many avenues and adventures.  I started looking for a name-  I threw out different names that had chicken in it… but I knew I wanted to be versatile- I wanted it to be more- be everything.  At that point, I had a lot going on- dealing with a lot of b*tchy people.  I was over it.  Danielle was helping me brain storm and she told me the only thing she could think of was Bak Bak-  my pinterest board for all my chickens!  She replied (after telling her my latest drama in my life), BakBakB*tchBak- I knew then and there she was onto something!  Literally…could. not. stop. laughing.  After a few bit emoji replies she sent me B*tch Bak Up— you know, like B*tch Back Up. Perfect!  I know a few people like that.. that needed some major backing up.  😉

And with that, B*tch Bak Up was created…  we decided on doing this together..  hey, maybe one day, one of us will be famous for it!  ILY D. <3